My day

Here is the the thing, I am not, nor have I ever been a good speller. So I do apologize a head of time. Today was a great day to start with. Woke up late, helped my step dad clean out his parents house( more on that later) My god children's birthday party was amazingly fun, and a good two mile walk. The part of my day that was not so great was the conversation I had with my ex Boyfriend while I was walking. Back ground story, my ex and I are way better friends then we where ever together. So I know this Kids like life story, and I'm not going to lie I still has feelings for him but, I know that we are way better off friends. We talk more now then we ever did when we where together it just seems to work. I moved in way to fast, after just 2 months of being  together. The relationship only lasted 6 months and fell apart due to trust issues that he had. I am a very trust worthy person so it was hard for me to understand why he didnt trust me. He had had some bad prevous relationships all ending in cheating. The thing that up set me tonight was he told me that his talking to another girl. OK I get it we're not together,but I am a girl and I did get a little jealous. He got upset because i told him how i felt, that i was a little jealous im not going to lie. But I feel like i should tell him that i dont think this is a good idea that he needs to work on his trust issue. and a little peice of me wants him all to my self still.  I have been the one that stuck by him after we broke up  and got him through his trust issues and child support shit. Why does some other girl get to rep the rewards. I know I'm not perfect but, shit I deserve a good man and he is a good man when he gets his head out of his ass. But may be his not and I need to expect his not the one?