6 MILES

Yup 6 miles is what I road on my bike today. My dad and I that is. It felt amazing to feel my body do what I want it to do. I feel more enpowered every time I make the right choices, on food and exercise. Tring realy hard to stay between 1200 and 1500 calores a day. Plus working out atlest 3 times a week. I can't belive the diffrence from two months ago till today. My modivation is higher my selfesteem is higher and I feel so much better. With pcos my life is not over it just has to be modified working out is the best thing any one can do with pcos. I may not see the scale drop numbers but nothing can compare to the way I feel.

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Befor and after

 

3 of 5 art project

This all three of my god childrens hands.

 

My Art Project 2 of 5

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These are my Beautiful God Children.

I may not ever be able to have children of my own so i borrow My sisters.

Homework project

These are my two beautiful god children taking a walk

This is actuly my god sons hands

And this is my homework project 1 of 5

Not working out today

Today is my day off from the work out. Had a great day shooting with my family. Oh yeah I lost a pound let's see if I can keep it off.
     Side note tonight I am having a very emotional roller coaster for no reason.

My day

Here is the the thing, I am not, nor have I ever been a good speller. So I do apologize a head of time. Today was a great day to start with. Woke up late, helped my step dad clean out his parents house( more on that later) My god children's birthday party was amazingly fun, and a good two mile walk. The part of my day that was not so great was the conversation I had with my ex Boyfriend while I was walking. Back ground story, my ex and I are way better friends then we where ever together. So I know this Kids like life story, and I'm not going to lie I still has feelings for him but, I know that we are way better off friends. We talk more now then we ever did when we where together it just seems to work. I moved in way to fast, after just 2 months of being  together. The relationship only lasted 6 months and fell apart due to trust issues that he had. I am a very trust worthy person so it was hard for me to understand why he didnt trust me. He had had some bad prevous relationships all ending in cheating. The thing that up set me tonight was he told me that his talking to another girl. OK I get it we're not together,but I am a girl and I did get a little jealous. He got upset because i told him how i felt, that i was a little jealous im not going to lie. But I feel like i should tell him that i dont think this is a good idea that he needs to work on his trust issue. and a little peice of me wants him all to my self still.  I have been the one that stuck by him after we broke up  and got him through his trust issues and child support shit. Why does some other girl get to rep the rewards. I know I'm not perfect but, shit I deserve a good man and he is a good man when he gets his head out of his ass. But may be his not and I need to expect his not the one?

Little bit about me and my struggle with pcos

Let me start by saying I have never done a blog before. So my blog is a combination of two things. First its about my newly diagnosed Poly cystic Ovarian Syndrome and second my crazy ass life. It should really be titled my 50 shades of fucked up and PCOS is taking over my life, but that wouldn't fit. Here is a brief history about me. I am 24 with a birthday that's fast approaching (more on why that's important later) Going to school at the University of Toledo. This blog is an assignment. I am currently unemployed, going to school and on the side I take care of my 3 god children. I was diagnosed with PCOS about a year ago. The crazy thing is I didn't take it serious until recently. I put it off like it would magically disappear. But my symptoms got worse, the hairs kept growing in places it shouldn't, my middle got rounder and one day I looked at a picture of me that someone had taken. I didn't even recognize myself. This face I was staring at wasn't mine, couldn't be,there is no way I let myself go like that. (Posting pictures later). As I stared at this picture it accured to me that not only did I not recognize this person at some point I stopped loving this person. I was in such a depression. I didn't know where to start, I had to get out of this funk. Find myself again and better my life. It took me awhile to come around but now I am a woman with a plan. My birthday is in less than 3 months, with in this time I am striving to have lost 30 pounds or more. I lost 10 pounds last month so for. I know am on the right track. With a little more work and allot of sweat I will get there. I hope my blog helps you get inspired . This is my life, my struggles and what I hope are my victory of a happier&skinner me.